Don’t Look Down

Once there was a journal
he opened it
and wrote about his day
Because he couldn't contain it.
He titled his entry "A Lack of Feeling"
Because that's what it was.
His mother told him not to get distracted in school
And he went out with his best friend on occasion
Who said that she was beginning to miss him.
The school was too crowded with people
who knew what he did
But he still tried to make friends.
And the guy he just met was the guy that would change him
And told him it'll be okay.
He wrote about how confused he felt.
He wrote about it all
then closed the book
To hide from the world
And keep his life to himself
So he hid it in his bedroom

Once there was a journal
he opened it
and wrote about his day
Because he couldn't contain it.
He titled his entry "Walking in the Rain"
Because that's what it was.
His mother stopped noticing the F's.
And he never saw his best friend
Who said things will get better for him.
The school was full of people
Who used it against him
So he let go of friends.
And the guy that would change him was the guy that could save him
And told him he was safe and didn't have to be afraid.
He wrote about how scared he felt.
He wrote about it all
then closed the book
To hide from the world
And keep his life to himself
So he hid it in his bedroom

Once there was a journal
he opened it
But wrote nothing
Because he had nothing to say
So he read it back.
His mother forgot he was there.
And he stopped speaking to his best friend
Who had said she couldn't deal with him any longer.
The school was empty
because he stopped talking to everyone.
And the guy that would save him was just another person
And told him there was nothing more he could do.
He didn't feel anything anymore.
So he stood in the bathroom
And took as many fucking pills as he could
Because it was all he could depend on
Then he closed the book
To hide from himself
And keep his life a memory
Because he knew he wouldn't make it back to his bedroom