Don’t Look Down

I don't know which way I should go.
I'm lost right now. Would it be better off to run and hope I find my way...or turn back and start from the beginning?
I want to say yes so badly. I just feel weird saying it. I should have answered the second I was asked.
I want to give a response to this. I'm sick saying nothing all the time. It doesn't get me anywhere.

I don't know who I am...
I want to agree and say yes. I have to...
On the positive side,  I'll know the answer to who I am. Definitely.
On the other hand... I'll know the answer to who I am...

I'm afraid to find out...but at the same time, I want to find out. I have to before I do something I can't undo.
The past few months, I thought this would fix it. I know it will.
My feelings are telling me to do it...its just my thoughts that are stopping the answer from coming out of my mouth.

That's been my problem the whole time -- I know how I feel...but my thoughts are telling me its wrong.