Don’t Look Down

Didn't You See How No One In There Cared?

Posted on 4/6/08 at 03:49 pm

I thought this was getting easier.
I still get these overwhelming feelings when I'm around a lot of people. I'm not very subtle about it -- hugging a pillow, avoiding eye-contact, sitting outside alone for over an hour...
I just can't handle being around people.
I had a massive headache but I couldn't do anything about it because someone stole my painreliever while we were performing.

I wish I could have said something in person. I wish I could have gone back inside. I should have said something.
I'm an idiot.

My recent entries have all been set to private.
I don't want people knowing anything about me anymore...

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Comments:

step_up_boy at 2008-04-07 01:34 (UTC) (Link)

no offense...

but it was happy time, dont expect people to run to you when your sitting on a porch for an hour, we didnt even know,when i came outside you told me you were waiting for your mom. stop saying people dont care, they do care, but they arent gunna let you ruin their night. im sorry but i understand you have things to deal with, but you make it ten times worse just because you think people dont care, if you stop hunting for attention from anyone/ evryone/ that one person things may get better, and i know you're ignoring evrything i say because you think ive been living in a black hole with the rest of the world for all my life but seriously, stop looking for pity and start looking for answers.

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in_the_scene at 2008-04-07 01:44 (UTC) (Link)

Re: no offense...

All I have to say is:

You misinterpreted the title.
and
As of yesterday, I am looking for answers and forcing myself to do something...even though I feel uncomfortable resorting to it.

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step_up_boy at 2008-04-07 01:46 (UTC) (Link)

Re: no offense...

how do you misinterpret " do you see how no one in there cared?" tell me what exactly that means...

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in_the_scene at 2008-04-07 01:50 (UTC) (Link)

Re: no offense...

I meant it negatively towards me rather than everyone else.
I'm saying that I'm acting like an paranoid idiot, thinking people are judging me on what I am...or what I'm not.

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(Anonymous) at 2008-04-08 19:37 (UTC) (Link)

Where'd all the comments go?

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(Anonymous) at 2008-04-08 20:42 (UTC) (Link)

He deletes the ones he doesn't like/ doesn't want to hear.

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in_the_scene at 2008-04-08 22:19 (UTC) (Link)

Basically.

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(Anonymous) at 2008-04-09 01:37 (UTC) (Link)

Well that's gay.

Ha no pun intended.