Don’t Look Down

Sometimes I wish I could just go back to a moment and stay there.
I wasn't insecure. I wasn't afraid. I never thought about anything other than what was in front of me.
I felt so sure.
I didn't feel ugly. I didn't feel like I needed to change. I didn't feel like it was wrong.
I didn't need to stare in the mirror to try and figure out who I am.
The thoughts I have now didn't exist.
I just wish that feeling could have lasted instead of turning in to this.
If you had told me that I would be nearly killing myself because of that moment...it would have never crossed my mind.
I was in a completely different place than where I am today.
I want to leave...


And when will I meet my end?
In a better time you could be my friend.