Don’t Look Down

I'm not getting anywhere.
I try...but I fail. Every time.
I should be walking straight... Instead I'm going around in circles.

My stomach feels like its going to explode.
I tried taking aspirin but it just made it worse.
Maybe he's right... I need to quit popping pills.
I passed out for a little while. I'm not sure if it was out of pain or lack of sleep.

If I just open up my mouth and say "I want to talk to you", I wouldn't need to resort to the things I've been resorting to.
I want it more than anything but I'm too afraid to even say so.

I need to stop going down this road of using drugs, alcohol and hurting myself to escape my fears.
I'm afraid one day I'll take it too far.

I try to think of how I can get passed this. I'm trying to think of a future...And I don't see anything.
I don't want to end up the way I feel that I will.


Still you know
There’s so much more to find –
Another dream, another love you’ll hold.