Don’t Look Down

This whole "happy" thing is so much harder than it sounds.
Eventually the emo in me overflows.

Its hard to be around people. Its even harder to be alone. I don't know where to go.
People make me feel insecure. But I'm scared when I'm alone.
I'm so confused about everything. All I know is that I need to talk...

I want this to go away. I'm afraid of everything.
I wish I could just open my mouth and say "I need to talk to you." but I'm too afraid to even do that.
The only time I can get myself to speak up is when I scare myself so much, I'm afraid I won't be able to control what I do...so then I get the courage to speak.
I can't keep this up.
And my head won't stop pounding...

How did a simple thing get complicated?
Days crawl by, I ask myself again,
Should I have waited?
In a world that's quick to judge,
I will try to understand.
It's so hard to find your way
When you have no voice to guide you.