Don’t Look Down

My shaking hasn't gone away.
I had another dream last night.
I did it again today.
I cried when I got home again.
I still think about it.
I never got better.

This is all still here. None of it changed.
Sometimes I literally feel like I'm going to explode. Its that feeling like there's something you could do or somewhere you can go but you don't know what or where.
I want to know what to do...

My thoughts are making this so much worse.

This is the worst feeling ever.

My parents refused to watch it because its a "liberal movie"
Whatever.
They watched it anyways...well, started to at least.
My dad walked out during I Wanna Hold Your Hand because the girl, Prudence, was singing it to another girl.
He said it was disgusting, said something about it being liberal bullshit and left. He never came back.
My mom watched the movie and enjoyed it. She did say that she didn't like that there was a lesbian in the movie because it was "disgusting"...but she liked the movie at least...

Who am I kidding? My parents are homophobic.