Don’t Look Down

I turned in early. I need more sleep... Its just that everytime I fall asleep, I keep getting these dreams...
Yeah, the same ones. They scare the shit out of me. I hate them.
Its like everytime I try to forget, these dreams come back. Like they're shouting "Hey, it really happened!!"
I hate that I can't even let myself start over. I can't even forget what I did.
These dreams get me so freaked out. I wake up with my heart pounding, I'm sweating, I'm breathing like I just came up for air in a swimming pool. I wake up crying...

I'm such a fucking mess.
I can't even sleep.
I wish none if this happened.
I wish I had someone to talk to.