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Don’t Look Down
A Story of Evolution
This is Your Battle Scar
Posted on 1/18/08 at 10:34 pm
I don't really understand why you hate me so much. I get that you think I'm running from my problems and I'm denial. In all honesty, why do you care? Its my life. I can do what I want with it. If you have something to say to me, tell me. You're not going to change my mind but I don't see what bitching to other people about it would do. Stop treating me like shit. Stop acting like I completely offended you. I'm sorry if I did but this is about me; nobody else. This is about how I want my life to be. I'm not trying to say that being gay is a bad thing. Its just not what I want. That's not how I want to live my life.
It pisses me off how you completely contradict yourself; how you make a huge-ass deal about how the GSA isn't outing people for being gay. You said they're trying to help. He told you that he thinks you are just harassing people until they are comfortable enough to admit to it and you told him that's not what the group was doing. He told you that harassing me about it would make it worse. I'm not saying that every one of the people in that group is like that but you don't set a very good example. Everything you told him and me and everything you said we were wrong about is the complete opposite of what you're doing right now. You're trying to treat me like shit until I admit to whatever you want me to say. I'm never going to say it. I don't want to hear your insulting gay remarks or what you think about me.
In the end, there's always a choice. I made mine and I'm keeping with it.
You can either accept that and move on or just forget about me and walk away. I don't want to talk to people that judge me for the choices I make.
If that's not the person I want to be, that's not the person I'm going to be.
There's a choice.
It pisses me off how you completely contradict yourself; how you make a huge-ass deal about how the GSA isn't outing people for being gay. You said they're trying to help. He told you that he thinks you are just harassing people until they are comfortable enough to admit to it and you told him that's not what the group was doing. He told you that harassing me about it would make it worse. I'm not saying that every one of the people in that group is like that but you don't set a very good example. Everything you told him and me and everything you said we were wrong about is the complete opposite of what you're doing right now. You're trying to treat me like shit until I admit to whatever you want me to say. I'm never going to say it. I don't want to hear your insulting gay remarks or what you think about me.
In the end, there's always a choice. I made mine and I'm keeping with it.
You can either accept that and move on or just forget about me and walk away. I don't want to talk to people that judge me for the choices I make.
If that's not the person I want to be, that's not the person I'm going to be.
There's a choice.
Nobody Cares How Much You Do
Posted on 1/18/08 at 10:54 pmI Feel: satisfied
I made a mistake tonight....
Actually, I made two. The first was leaving my house. I should have stayed home like I originally planned. The second was how I dealt with everything afterwards. I know it was a bad choice but it made me feel better.
I feel light-headed
My stomach hurts
My ribs are tightening up
My eyes are stinging
My throat burns
It sounds bad but I think I like it. I can understand why people become addicted.
Actually, I made two. The first was leaving my house. I should have stayed home like I originally planned. The second was how I dealt with everything afterwards. I know it was a bad choice but it made me feel better.
I feel light-headed
My stomach hurts
My ribs are tightening up
My eyes are stinging
My throat burns
It sounds bad but I think I like it. I can understand why people become addicted.