Don’t Look Down

In order to start rebuilding my life, I should probably set out some rules.

1. Stop telling people how I feel. 
   There's nothing wrong with not being open. That's what this journal is for...
2. Focus on school.
   I need to stop thinking about my personal problems and start working on the ones in front of me.
3. Stop Letting Peoples' Thoughts Affect Me
   If I'm having problems that I want to solve, I'm not going to stop because of everyone else's thoughts. I shouldn't be listening to the third-person commentaries -- mine are all that matter.
4. Finish Dealing With My Nerves
   Its my thoughts that are causing them. Just stop thinking about being nervous and it will happen.

I'm not leaving for boarding school because I'm not gay. I never was. If you've heard anything, you must have either misheard or been fed false information.
Why should I run from rumors started by misinterpretations?
I've been sitting here minding my own business.
I'm not gay. I'm not going to have a dead-end life...
I've been gone for the past 3 months.

I'm a different person now.