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Don’t Look Down
A Story of Evolution
Even The Best Fall Down Sometimes...
Posted on 1/12/08 at 08:42 pmI Feel: crushed
I talked to my mom about boarding school.
I need to get away. The storm is still blowing. It may not be the bravest thing to do but I need to get out of the rain and thunder.
I need to start over -- meet people that don't know who I am or what I've been through. People that don't care about what I've done.
I have to.
I can handle being talked about; I can handle my nerves exploding around him; and I can even handle someone knowing my every move. What I can't handle is having no one I can trust and having no one I can talk to. I can't handle dealing with that feeling of talking to people and knowing its going to circulate back to me in a matter of hours. I just want this all to be over with -- I need it to be. I need to move on and start over and if this is the way to do it then that's fine with me. Let it blow over.
Its finished.
If you're gonna leave, you better start running.
I need to get away. The storm is still blowing. It may not be the bravest thing to do but I need to get out of the rain and thunder.
I need to start over -- meet people that don't know who I am or what I've been through. People that don't care about what I've done.
I have to.
I can handle being talked about; I can handle my nerves exploding around him; and I can even handle someone knowing my every move. What I can't handle is having no one I can trust and having no one I can talk to. I can't handle dealing with that feeling of talking to people and knowing its going to circulate back to me in a matter of hours. I just want this all to be over with -- I need it to be. I need to move on and start over and if this is the way to do it then that's fine with me. Let it blow over.
Its finished.
If you're gonna leave, you better start running.