Don’t Look Down

For everything I've caused in the past 2-3 months. It was my fault for everything that's happened. I think I started off well by getting you and *the guy* to get together but I should have stopped and let you guys handle it from there. I just knew you were so confused after it happened, I figured if *the guy* was to know that, he would help you and he did...until the rumors surfaced. I just want to say I had nothing to do with the rumors. I never told anyone. I wanted you guys to work things out and come out and tell people when and if you both felt it was right. I guess this sort of thing isn't easy to hide. Its not as invisible as you may think. I'm sorry for sending you and *the guy* Honesty Box messages. I'm sorry for reading your private Livejournal posts and telling him what they said. I feel as though I'm the reason *the guy* regrets what happened. I feel like I'm the reason you're so heart-broken and miserable. I feel like I'm the reason the two of you stopped talking. I hope you know that I was just trying to help you. I wanted to help you. I wanted to make things better. You may not realize it but its really sad how upset you are about this whole thing.
I know you couldn't confront *the guy* on your own so I tried to get him to confront you. I didn't tell him about your posts to be a bitch. I told him because I knew that was what you wanted to say to him but couldn't so I tried to do it for you. It worked a few times. He became aware that you were upset. He really does care about you and how you're doing with everything. He really wanted to help you. It was my fault that he walked away. If it weren't for me, the two of you would probably be talking and you would be comfortable around him.
"I think that if it had been a different person with me in that car, I would have been able to go through with it. I wouldn't have cared. I wouldn't have stopped...but it was him. I didn't stop myself from going further. He stopped me. I wish I didn't feel that way. I wish I could have figured this out with someone I didn't care for..."
My last word of advice: I just think you should talk to him and you should tell him everything. 
I'm not saying this to be a bitch but if he's the kind of person that would walk away from you like that, maybe he's not the best person to be head over heals for. Go to the GSA show. It will help your nerves. You never know. Maybe something will happen.
I was just trying to help with the situation and I made everything worse. I just hope I can undo what I did and let you guys start off where I should have walked away.